After 10 years with "J", I am now getting divorced and loosing my house in a short sale. (If you want to know how this all happened, I would recommend reading
this post here and this post here) But I am young, only 25, and I have started to close that chapter and explore the next. This is where I find out what I am made of. This is where I seek 'me'

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

You're not there

Today I am having a stressful day at work.

I thought about calling J and telling him about my day, looking for him to say something sweet and remind me that my day is almost over and that he will cook dinner for me tonight.

Then I realized I have no one. J isn’t there – he doesn’t care about my day at work.

I need someone to be there. Not a friend or family member, I want my husband, the husband I thought I had.

2 comments:

Jen said...

I know what you mean, it's different telling a friend or parent a problem than it is to telling your boyfriend / husband. Sorry you're having a rough time (and I'm absolutely at the end of an email if you need it).

Heather said...

Thanks Jen - its really weird just doing everyday normal things without someone by your side.

Its just a normal reaction to turn to that person - its weird realizing that they aren't there...